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Mother and Me
I am remembering the moments where I thought I had nothing compared to others. I used to always feel as if my mother and the rest of my family were poor. Growing up in apartment buildings, sharing bedrooms with my siblings made me think that my mother was a poor woman by not being capable of affording a home like any other parent would. At the time my mother had two jobs, she’d get home late practically every night and so my oldest sister Ashley would have to come pick up my little brother and I from daycare. It made me sad seeing other parents walk into the daycare coming to pick up their children after work and not seeing my mother do the same for me.
Now that I am becoming a woman with so much beauty, personality and intelligence, I started to realize that life was never easy for my mother, it was always a challenge. Those challenges made her the woman she is today and the mother she taught her daughters to be. It’s my turn to be a the strong woman my mother taught me to be, by facing the challenges I have ahead of me. Many of my challenges I went through broke me down, losing a brother and not knowing if my biological father would ever come knocking by my door looking for me to tell me how much he loved me tore me apart. Here was the hardest challenge for me to face, my mother laid her soft and kind warm hands on both of my cheeks and looked right into my eyes and told me my father had left us for another family. The tears were pouring down from my eyes like rain, feeling as if I was a mistake to my mother. My father made me so angry. I was wrong because that same night, when my mother told me my father left for a new beginning, she also said I was the greatest gift sent from heaven.
Sixteen year old me, had brought me into visualization that I was never put in a position where I was poor but put in a position where I was being lead towards a greater home and a greater life for me and my family. For some reason I never really believed in dreams or possibilities but my mother was the one who showed me that dreams and possibilities weren’t just a fantasy but were more like reality, those dreams would only truly happen if you’d put in the hard work into your hopes and dreams and that is what my mother did. She bought a lovely home by the water for her children and got herself her dream car.
It is my time to prepare myself by asking the older me, what will I do someday for my dreams to be a reality. I’ve spoken to the older me and told her that I would want to be a professional musician with a lawyers degree. It sounds impossible but my mother taught me that impossible doesn’t exist. There is so much more to what my future holds for me, a beautiful family of five and a smart and handsome husband, living in a big home facing towards a clear and bright view. One day I will have the chance to give my mother what she deserves for everything she’s ever given me. I will be that someone who will always make her proud for the daughter she’s raised on her own. I won’t fail or fall, I will stand and walk with my chin up high remembering the words that my mother taught me.
Life and a mother is what made me
A mother with power is what strengthens me
Words by my mother is what showed me
A mother and a daughter is what stands by each other.
Impossible is what you put your mindset towards but will never be a real feeling.